Calm or chaos?

I've always had a thing for chaos: how things and situations land on the floor and in the middle of hallways, rather than being in shelves and drawers. Yet I'm calm.
Anyways, what do you do after everything is cleaned and placed properly? You create a new mess, as to clean that up too. You wipe, dust and wash so much that objects lose their shine. But that is what is taught to you, so you be obedient.
Or you be chaotic. Shatter glass Windows, ruin ironed shirts, spill wine on the new book and what not. You pretend to live the wild life. Or maybe that is what you are.
The irony is, life has become a vicious cycle of calm and chaos. You either follow the same routine everyday and call it a life or you create new problems and engage yourself in solving them.
The question that remains is; who's alive and who's just existing, calm or chaos?
There are people like me too, standing on the radius of the circle; Chaotic as a human yet living in a refrigerator. Or a calm human in extreme situations. Basically we're called paradoxes. And you know what's funny? This is the paradox of our life.